Every time I feel a negative emotion lately: anger, sadness, embarrassment, whatever - I feel some area of my guts burning, or I get a serious head ache. I feel some kind of chemical squirting into my guts from some duct somewhere, and it gives me this stinging tingle feeling. Or my spinal column buzzes. Or I get a feeling like a balloon suddenly deflating in the center of my chest. There is nothing that I face in my work day that should be causing this kind of stress, these kinds of feelings. My life isn't really that stressful.
Maybe I'm supposed to be in a more stressful situation, not my cozy little cubicle comfort zone. Maybe I'm geared for something a little more...trying. I should find a setting that matches my temperament. I've been reading in the Occupational Outlook Handbook about social work. A lady at work use to do social work. She majored in sociology, and then she became a social worker. But now, she's like screw that, and she works in the finance department of the organization where I work. I think I'll ask her more about social work.
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This morning we stepped outside, and a hot air balloon was floating by. I waved. A good start to a Saturday. It's going to be nice today, I heard.