In my readings lately about getting my mind right, I’ve seen a recurring idea. These books about anxiety management and anger management and Buddhist wisdom - they assume that there is an inner happiness in all people...and that anger and anxiety and other negative emotions are just temporary and minor deviations from the foundation of happiness which is there and which has always been there.
I’m not so sure.
I was trying to tally up all of my times, viewing all of the periods of my life. ...grade school, junion high, high school, college, full-time in the workforce. When I view these periods of my life, it’s hard to remember whether I was mostly happy or mostly sad - minute to minute, hour to hour. It’s hard to remember whether I ever had a default happiness mode.